Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Make/Break it

Built on trust,respect,love and faith
Eternity is the absolute possibility
Nothing will shake its foundation
Even through storms and thunders

That's how friendship starts
'Friends forever'!
However, human relationships are subjected to wear and tear
Some can be mended
Others are damaged, irreversible

Some became enemies overnight
Over issues dealing with rationality and practicality
Where has the innocence gone?
Where is the love?

In this book of mine
Pages have been flipped
Chapters read
The conclusion has yet to be set

One thing for sure,
Cherish them in the present
Be 'care-less' about the future
Who knows what happens tomorrow
That may crumble/solidify the foundation

listening to: 'Drugstore Jesus' by Plumb

Real joy is naught

I felt lonely and tired
Sick of this life I have been having
People come and go
Some went without notice
Others came with a loud bang

Behind the facade of cheer
Lies pain,grieve and tears
I cry out to heaven many times
'Take me!', that's my plea

Family and friends I have
But real joy is naught

I want to be free
From all the cares and misery
I want to feel belonged
To someone who cherishes me inside out

I know I am loved
By the Almighty above
He has broken many of my chains
Carried me in His arms
Wiping the tears I shed

But, I yearn for earthly love
Emptiness dwell in my heart
Love came twice,
But left shortly
What's the worth?

listening to: 'Save me' by Corrine May

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Couch potato for a day

Spent the whole day watching vcds of a Korean drama entitled 'Full House', currently showing on Channel 55 on SCV. This is the first time I watched AND got hooked on a Korean drama. I used to avoid it like a plague because of the same old love stories and endless crying scenes. They just turn me off. However, this one is slightly different. Of course the crying scenes and love story is still there, but the bickering between the lead characters is the key factor that drew my attention.

Since I am sick and have to stay home ( I call it house arrest..haha), might as well spend the time by watching a quality-show. When I finished the whole box of vcds (total: 16 episodes but since I have watched 10 episodes, balance is 6), I was really tired. There had been a few times when I nearly fell asleep due to the medicine.

Now the next one to watch is the mega-production '大长今’I will watch it daily coz it's so exciting and 'fresh'. This Korean history-based drama is really different from the rest. Even nitty-gritty details about food preparation for the Emperor will be given 5-10minutes of screen time on TV. I really take my hat off the scriptwriter.Well done!

listening to MSN radio

Saturday, October 08, 2005

First draft of wishlist for this Christmas

This is my first draft of wishlist for this year's Christmas, more items will be added soon! Haha.(Ranked not in order of priority)
  1. A well-paid challenging job related to projects/events mgt or in customer service (my current job will end in mid-Dec!! *sad* )
  2. iPod nano!!
  3. A new smart handphone with MP3,radio,mega-pixel camera and Bluetooth capabilities(the current one seems to be on the verge of death)
  4. A digital camera
  5. A Coach wallet
  6. Another pair of spectacles
  7. A top from Paul and Joe (I am so in love with their stuff, but so expensive!)
  8. Swatch watch
  9. Friends who acknowledge my existence...
  10. A clean bill of health

Some of the items will make people go, "Wow! All branded stuff etc etc" Yak and yak.Others will go,"How abt world peace?" Oh pls..dun give me the 'Miss Congeniality' line. There can never be world peace because of the existence of power struggles. Poverty cannot be eliminated and be made history, it can only be minimised.So, I am really skeptical about those campaigns by celebs and NGOs.Elimination of poverty is only an utopian view.

listening to: '成全' by Liu Ruo Ying

2 months and 17 days to Christmas 2005!

Yup, I am counting down to Christmas. It's not that I have a fantastic ala 'Paris Hilton-nish' party or some big celebration. Most of the time, Christmas is spent alone at home with my beloved Internet, haha. However, I do look forward to this special occasion every year. Christmas gives me a sense of warmth, you know, a fuzzy feeling.

Unlike other families who have big parties to mark this special occasion, mine is a quiet affair which I have learnt to appreciate it over the years. Guess as I grow older, I tend to be more 'homely'. Strange but true. I used to be really wild and love to be out of the house.Perhaps it's a biological thing yah,haha.

Ok, about Christmas. I love to shop for Christmas presents. To me, giving is better than receiving. Before Christmas, I will have a list of presents to buy for my friends. Then the shopping begins! I will take around 2-3 days to finish the list, and the presents will be ready 1-2 weeks before Dec 25. I am not those who do last minute Christmas shopping. Why?
  • hate to jostle with the crowds when buying my stuff
  • gift wrapping is such a chore at major shopping malls
  • heavy traffic almost daily in town in the week before Christmas!
  • long queues for purchases and the ladies!
  • worse,tempers fly in crowded places.

I prefer to shop in peace and calm,no one to disturb me.Keke, call me 'weird' if you like.Ha!

This year, Christmas will be different compared to the past. No more grp outings due to changes in social circles. Am attempting to organise not one but 2 BBQs in my place (quite scary for an amateur).

listening to: "Man on a Mission" by Hall and Oates

Monday, October 03, 2005

*blank*

Walking aimlessly along the streets,
Cutting throught the crowds,
Everyone looks the same.
Bangs ans straightening.
Tees and jeans
Tank tops and mini skirts
Over-sized t-shirts over baggy pants
Powdered faces versus plain janes
Meterosexuals juxtaposed against eau de naturals

Whispers and chatters
Stares and glances
Where do I belong in this oh-so-real world?
We are just actors, playing our roles on this big-stage we call 'world'
Scripts thrown into our faces
Not a need for memorization
Some actions have been internalised
While others are taught by fellow actors in our lives
Social supervision - a cage that we are contained in

Being 'different' is like breaking away
Going against the flow
Being the 'other', against the norm
Does that entail a heavy punishment?
By law and/or the 'reward/punish system' by the society?

listening to: 'Miss Independent' by Kelly Clarkson