last day
for fiona, one of my closest colleague cum friend in my company. the reality that she has left us still hasn't sunk into me yet. when she informed me, i was like 'huh?! are you sure????' i was stunned, totally. i mean, there were no hints whatsoever that she is leaving. it was such a hush hush affair.we clicked immediately when she introduced herself to me during the first 2 weeks since i started my job. i mean both of us can laugh so much together and tell crappy stuff..hee..she was my 'novena square' lunch partner and she taught me many things..really..i am missing her. as both of our schedules are quite similar, we see each other frequently. went to shop together and realised that we have similarities! for example: TopShop, Dorothy Perkins ( i thought i can NEVER find someone who likes DP), Warehouse etc ...and our latest brand is COACH!! hahahaa..(yah i simply love their bags...hee)
Moreover, she influenced me in healthy eating habits...really...i am really inspired by her eating habits..so healthy! so good..hee..i am missing her liao....monday mornings will never be the same again.
Well, i do know that in a company, people come and go for a reason. but it is not easy to find a really chummy colleague.
*listening to: 'Play' by Jennifer Lopez
the tap ran today
my tap ran today before i started work! was feeling abit gorgy this morning when i woke up. thought that i will be ok after getting into the sun..but NO!! sneezed here and there. told myself that 'nah...it's only a while'. by the time i reached office, goodness..my 'tap' just ran. i tell myself not to get an MC unless really necessary coz my department in quite understaffed and my supervisor is like overworked. one of my close colleagues cum 'sister-in-christ' had flu too...was on MC for 1.5 days. (if you are reading this, just wanna say: I MISS YOU!! esp our hugs...teeheehee. get well soon ok!! The Lord is our Healer!) anyway, felt that i should took an MC coz i was sneezing away at the Reception and it's like kinda not really hygenic..i mean if parents see my sneezing away and talking to them...unprofessional yah..moreover they are sending their precious kids to our school and i am in the frontline!! what if they child gets sick?! so yah, better take an MC and lock myself away from 'potentially' spreading the bug to them...must learn from the SARS incident.
slept alot today..like 4 hrs of nap! felt good..so now i am like waiting to sleep again. still feeling awake..listening to those soothing music..supposed to join Hueyling at 'China Bar' (i do not know where it is!) tonight for clubbing. but looking at the present state, better not..in case my cold worsens..health is more important in this case. hmm..hopefully i can go dbl o next week with my fellow colleagues. heard alot abt that place, some say 'ew' others complimented..so yah wld like to see and feel it for myself before i say anything abt it.
payday is coming!! hee..need to change or rather buy a new pair of specs (to join my RAs who have funky and retro plastic specs!), a COACH wristlet (loved it immediately when i saw it..hee..), and a new wooden cd rack. the second item is optional lah...that is a want, not a need.teeheehee.but the rest are needs!!
*listening to: 'Can You Celebrate' (instrumental) by Namie Amuro
woke up to my senses
finally, i have got over it! for sure this time!! last thursday, i went clubbing till like 2am with colleagues at siam supperclub. after dancing, felt better. by the way, my colleagues are so happening!!! OMG! haha...a few can really grooovvvveee..hee...hopped over to madam wong's for a while. that place is good! nice music though the place smells stale...ew....anyway, today my colleague is like asking me 'when are we going to club again?' i was like 'wah'. cannot man..have been clubbing two weeks in a row...only on thurs lah.need a break!
yah, i figured out that even if both of us are together, things wun last long. as in our lifestyles are quite different. he doesn't like people to club, "waste money'. for me, i do club. then in terms of eating places, both of us have different tastes. we can talk for hours but i think it's best we remain as friends. things are much better that way.maybe it's our age gap. coz it's like we have different priorities in life. for me, now is to work and have fun first. starting a family is like not in my mind. by the way, i am not an advocater for the new 'pro baby' measures that the govt recently came up with. the people behind these measures are so techocratic!! it's time they have structuralists in their 'work teams'. anyway, wun wanna dwell in that..otherwise i will be writing a term paper here! LOL
seriously, i think i am in the clubbing mood..ahah.happening colleagues. might be going to dbl o soon..hahha...ooo...wld like to visit 'aquadisiac', the club at wisma atria soon.
as for relationship, i believe that there will be one at the right place, right time. amen.
*listening to: 'Shape of my Heart' by Backstreet Boys
soon to be ladies night
Woke up, 'I am the righteousness of God in Christ'
Topshop tee and black pants
No breakfast
Ran after bus 105
Saw a cute guy
Exchanged glances
Had a nudie drink
Met sylvia for lunch
Duckrice and yong tau foo
Simplicity is the best
Work started
Peaceful
Scolded by a mum
Complained
Tried to propaganda
She's the killing her brain cells and increasing blood pressure
Do i care?
Why join us if fees are high?
Nonsense
Contradiction
Busy
Saw my favourite toddler
Adorable!
Had McCafe
Peak period
Busy
Dropped a printer!
No damage
Discussed about clubbing
Siam Supperclub on Th,9/9
With colleagues
Anticipating!
Happiness when day ended at 2230
*listening to: 'Ladies Night' by Atomic Kitten
It's official
it's official, they are together. found out about them today from one of my friends in church who saw them holding hands together. i would be lying if i say that i am not affected by it. actually, i anticipated them to be together as a couple right from the start when he told me how they met and abt her a few mths ago. but the thing is that, perhaps i am still escaping from reality. sometimes i am really angry with God on why He did not warn me earlier about confiding too much in him. but on the other hand, i might have ignored the inner promptings. anyway, was late for church today, so thank God that i did not see them. blessing in disguise..maybe....
ever since i know about them, my friendship with him took a turn...not for the better. perhaps it's my fault..i just did not wanna talk to him as much as before..dunno why..my close friends told me that i am in actual fact avoiding him. well, yah. i just do not want to hear anything about them. jealously? yes! i gladly admit it. but u know what, i am glad that i started working..at least most of my time is spent at work (dealing with all kinds of parents) and not thinking about him/them. Perhaps, it has all been planned by Him. 'Our ways are not His ways'..a verse that i clinged to whenever i feel that what i desire is not materialising. ultimately, i tell myself to trust in His ways coz He sees the big picture. i am really thankful and blessed to have my close girlfriends who encouraged,listened and perked me up when i was down these few mths. two of them actually went out for drinks with me on separate occassions and listened to me even though i was rambling away. most of all, thank goodness i have this blog! an almost-personal space for me to express my feelings at any time of the day as long as i am connected to the Internet.
just finished a conversation with him on the phone. talked abt church and work. i felt abit sour. actually din wanna talk to him, coz i am afraid that i might just cry. thank God, i didn't! but the conversatin was kept short, avoiding any potential attempts to discuss abt them. need to sleep now, have to sleep...that's when I rest totally in Christ.
*listening to: 'dreams' by Darlene Zschech
