Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Weekend getaway in Bintan!

Went to Bintan for the first time (how less travelled am I! sigh) and boy, it was FUN FUN FUN! *jumps ecstatically* Spent around $250 for a 2 night-one day trip but it was worth it. This time I really felt really relaxed during the short trip. The sun,sand and sea was so amazing! Janette and I were blessed greatly during the trip!

  1. Free upgrade to a deluxe room for no apparent reason (so blessed!)
  2. Got a free drink at Asmara Spa (coz I asked them some questions regarding the Lemongrass-Honey drink....the oh-so-nice guy at the counter decided to make one for us,on the house!!!)

Tried jet skiing, well, I was the passenger *teethy smile*. Janette was the driver, so I just sat behind her and enjoy the sea breeze! Definitely going to try it myself next time. Had a good time maximising the presence of the sun aka TANNING! I did not get really dark on the parts I wanted (my arms,legs) but my back was really tanned. Thank goodness my mum did not see it, otherwise she will start to nag *rolls eyes*. Ooooooo..I wore my bikini for the first time! haha, you must be thinking,"Bikinis are so common nowadays, why get so excited?" Well, i bought the bikini since 2003, but but..did not have the courage to wear it lah. As you see, your dear friend here does not possess the 'bikini-babe' figure. Honestly, if I wear it in Singapore, am going to be a laughing stock esp if familiar people see. Come on, I am just being real. In Bintan, the environment is so conducive to wear a bikini. No one will stare at you coz it's a common sight.

Actually, in Bintan, the survival of the tourism industry there is heavily dependent on the weather. If it's raining cats and dogs, do not expect crowds to be there. Without the sun, what can you do? Stay in the room and watch TV? Play games and pool? Eat? Get what I mean. Anyway, I stayed at Nirwana Resort Hotel. Good service and ambience.

Had a head,shoulder and neck message at Asmara Spa. WONDERFUL! The ambience and service is excellent! The massage was really good and it was a heavenly experience. I did not feel like leaving the room after the massage was done..hehe

I promised myself to visit Bintan yearly.....hee

*listening to: 'Incognito' by M-Flo

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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Not meant to be

Kelly Clarkson's 'Behind these hazel eyes' struck a chord with me. Not that I have hazel eyes (mine is black by the way,=P), the lyrics in the song reflected abt 80% of what I am going through now. I am so puzzled how someone can just TOTALLY ignore you,when we have spent some intimate moments together. Perhaps, I have never been into a relationship before,that's why I feel so broken up..there's always a first for everything. Now it will take me a long time before I take the chance if some guy comes by. The kind of sincerity just became so short-lived. 'I will wait for you, I will.In the weeks and months to come, if I have to start all over again, you will still be my dear no matter what.'BS.Totally BS.That's why I don't believe in marriages at all (even though I shd be).Seen too much,heard too much...and now this...Don't use busy-ness as an excuse...don't...


I just can't believe how fast you changed,
the sincerity just disappeared.
Now,it's ignorance and absence,
as if I have never existed.

Seems like yesterday,
you came into my life.
those conversations,
the hugs,
the look of your eyes,
the feel of your hand....
though i said,'just friends'.
you persisted and gave me hope.

then,just when i wanna give a try,
to take a chance for us.
to take the leap of faith and believe in love,
i went through so much thoughts,
was touched by your faith,
you said,'impossible,emotionally drained.'
what happened to the 'wait'?
i felt cheated,given false expectations.
everything crumbled.

you don't see the tears i cried,
falling asleep on tears-soaked pillows.
i can't pretend everything is alright,
coz they ain't.
disintegrated into pieces,
not only you crushed my emotions,
you torn my confidence in relationships

not going to believe you ever again,
no turning back
the only thing i can say for eternity is 'just friends'
i pray that time will heal.
maybe we are not meant to be together.
I trust in Him that my life will go on, much better than before....without you.

* wanna thank my girlfriends (you know who you are) for standing by me,listening to my ramblings,for picking up the calls even if it meant sacrificing your time and most of all for LISTENING to me. I am blessed by your existence. I hold firm to this saying, 'Boys come and go,but girls STAY.' Thanks.

listening to: 'Behind these hazel eyes' by Kelly Clarkson

posted by Jiatine @ 12:43 AM 10 Comments

Monday, June 13, 2005

72 hours, a weekend

Words that described my weekend.....

Friday: anticipation, surprise,sadness,tears,alone,abandoned,girl-talk,soaked-pillows,
Saturday: recovery,alone,monotonous,routine,quiteness,blank,cheated,hopeless,rescue me
Sunday: better,songs,lifted up,be still,refreshed,Madagascar,smiles,laughter,chums,hope,psalms 91,

Before the world rushes in and overwhelms me,
I wanna stop, to say that 'I love you'
day by day, you work behind my back
making sure that I am well-cared,
shielded away from evil,
protected under your wings.

there were days that I simply forget your existence,
taking for granted of your goodness,
not thanking you for the miracles you have done (and are doing)

when trials come and sucked the life out of me,
i ignored you,
was angry towards you,
most of all, turning my back
but you did not forsake me,
nor abandoned me.
you are always there,
extending your arms for me to run to.
you are more than an earthly father,
loving me unconditionally.

oh daddy, alpha and omega,prince of peace,
thank you for blessing me.....so that i can be a blessing to others.

*listening to: 'I'll Rise' by Newsong

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Saturday, June 04, 2005

Monkeys anyone?

My friend emailed the following to me and I find it really hilarious! To a certain extent, this is really true esp you work in an environment that is so $^%^(*$#%#$# ( Parental advisory: Pls do not read the quote if you find ass***** sensitive)

"An organization is like a tree full of monkeys,... all on different limbs,... at different levels,... some climbing up.The monkeys on the top look down and see a tree full of smiling faces.The monkeys on the bottom look up and see nothing but assholes."

*Thanks Cyclee for the email!! =)

listening to: 'A Little Less Conversation' by Elvis Presley (King of Rock!!)

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