taking a break
made a final decision today..a painful decision,but i guess it will do everyone good.From this day on,I will stop blogging till further notice.It has been a wonderful 7 mths,penning my thoughts online and reading comments.A big thanks to sylvia who introduced me to blogspot. To those who wanna know how I am doing or if I am still alive, do not hesitate to contact me (thru email,sms or a call).Will try my best to accomodate.Thanks everyone.
*listening to: 'Over and Over' by Nelly and Tim McGraw
exactly 7 more weeks..
..and i will turn 23! seems very fast...well, i just take one day at a time. thankfully,it is my off day as well.which means i have a whole day to myself,watching a show (oo..btw i have been watching shows every wed since i started my new working hours..hehe..got to watch many shows that i like!)i have already booked a spa treatment on 16th march! hehe..to pamper myself mah...well,perhaps i should start planning what to do that day...a movie is a must!! ooo...have to go ZARA too! haha.by now,my friends should now that i am a ZARA fan!! *waving the ZARA bag* *laughing out loud*
wanted to go for a short trip during the week of my birthday.but decided not to, coz it coincides with the March holidays.this meant that travel packages will be more expensive and there will be many people!!! had in mind to go China myself (of course join a tour grp) but well, better not. i spent quite a substantial amt on my Seoul trip last Dec. Now am saving up for either an Aussie trip with Ricia or a trip to US (to visit Jean!!) with Fiona.
ok...just wanted to blog for awhile since I am having my off day today.just went for a swim..feeling good!!! have to lose weight soon....damn
*one of my colleagues indirectly commented that i am fat...shit...sigh,abit demoralised liao
*listening to: 'Everlasting Love' by Jamie Cullum
dancing away...
..with cia and syl last night at Dbl O. Supposed to go to coco latte at The Gallery Hotel,but in the end,one of the 'organisers' cannot make it (fell ill...=( ),so changed to Dbl O instead.Fortunately syl and cia still go with me to Dbl O otherwise it will be a sad case..I was looking forward to clubbing again.hehe.the music last night was hip hop..not very fantastic according to cia.well,have to agree to a certain extent. The music on Wed nights is better apparently. There were so many people there last night, coz today is Hari Raya Haji,so many people do not have to work (and that includes me!! thank God!)
saw mark zee *again*! will see him everytime i go dbl o. he muz be one of those 'faithful' customers. majority of us remember him either as the 'real winner' in the Singapore-version of 'The Bachelorette' that is, 'An Eye for a Guy' or as the '23 year old lecturer' in a poly! i still cannot believe that he lectures (or rather lectured??) in a poly..interesting.btw, in my opinion,he sure is a happening person..can shakes his bon-bon very well..hahha.
alright,enuff of Mr Z. i really had a good time with syl and cia last night. you know what! this is the first time i club with syl since 5 years ago!! well, she seldom clubs lah...good girl mah..hehe.
*listening to: 'Sundial Dreams' by Kevin Kern
flowers
got a basket of flowers and a teddy bear from a parent today.one of the mothers whom i interacted with last week actually sent them to my office. was really surprised when my colleague called and told me yesterday.a pleasant surprise indeed. when i saw them sitting on my desk this afternoon, i was overwhelmed coz it looked expensive. she made my Monday beautiful. a very nice mother, not because she sent me flowers (pls..i do not work for the sake of these gifts....),but because i felt a sense of satisfaction that she appreciated what we do. hee...i mean we try to assist parents to the best of our abilities..but sometimes...circumstances do not allow us to do so.this is when some parents will start to turn annoyed..well, some can turn..hmm..i termed 'monsters'.haha. the best thing is,she got me lillies! and boy! do i love lillies!!hehe. i am not a 'rose-kind' of person..definitely not..why? simply coz they have thorns!!i absolutely fall in love with lillies (certain ones) and tulips.hee.
anyway, you know what, this is the 3rd time i receive flowers in my entire life thus far..hehe..first time was from the guys of Geog Soc during V.Day when they gave all the girls a stalk of rose..sweet ya. 2nd time was when ricia and xinyi gave me lillies during my graduation ceremony.when will i receive flowers from that special someone??? *a pondering look*
*listening to: 'Only Time' by Enya
eyeing on a Swatch
saw a pearl-strap Swatch watch just now at Takashimaya. got so excited coz it is so special!!4 thin straps of pearls,of different colours...looked so good! hehe. now that watch is in my mind.hmm...maybe i will buy it as a present to pamper myself for my 23rd birthday!! hehe
I got my first Swatch when I was 13 years old, it was a gift from my cousin. A red-leather strap Scuba Swatch. wore it for almost 3 years before it 'died' on me. actually i was guilty of 'murdering' it. threw it away accidentally when i was moving house....sob sob. since then, i started to have Swatch watches either bought by myself or as requested gifts.hehe. so far, my 'oldest' Swatch is 10 years old! and it is still 'alive and ticking'! a good value for money.
i look out Swatches with unique straps. usually that will fall under the 'POP Swatch' category. even though a few of them are not easy to match with clothes, i dun mind buying them for collection purpose..hehe. now i am eyeing their 'Skin' and 'Irony' categories. so cool..some of them. oo..i dislike leather straps. hard to maintain, will stink if it gets in touch with water or perspiration.
now looking forward to the Spring/Summer 05 collection..hopefully have more unique ones...hehe
*listening to: a sermon by Pastor Prince
hair and body
i need an image makeover! damn it. sick and tired of my current hairstyle..i wanna add some colour!!!! it has been 5 mths since i last went to a salon to colour my hair. break record. when i was an undergraduate, i colour my hair once every 3 mths..some have said that i am crazy or 'wah! u got so much money ah??!!' well, since uni dun have much rules or whatsoever, might as well be daring abt hair colour yah...otherwise i wld not have the chance again. miss my blonde streaks days..haha.maybe next week, when the 5-day work week officially commences, i will make use of my off day to do sth abt my hair. wanna try sth new yet not too daring.i mean need to have a proper image also mah..
ooo..need a wardrobe overhaul! so sick and tired of the clothes i have now. it's a headache everyday when i start to prepare to go to work. i will just open my cupboard,sit on the bed and stare at my 'collection' of clothes. so sian. the Zara sale did not do me any good. thought that i will be able to buy more clothes,in the end, i bought nothing! so disappointing. i am very fussy when i buy clothes coz i only go to selected shops/boutiques. ok, someone can quote me 'high class' here or whatsoever..but i mean you know, when you are so used to some brands, you will just stick to it. places such as Far East are no-no for me in terms of office wear.abit wrong. i am a fan of UK brands, hip clothes and their sizes are relatively larger.
Kaoz...my mum was complaining that my wardrobe is so 'black'.as in too many black tops and bottoms. well, i also wanna wear psychedelic colours mah..but but.ain't easy to find one that is not too loud, suit my size12 frame and most of all, affordability! I need clothes!! hopefully Zara,TopShop,Dorothy Perkins and Iora will have sth out soon for their Spring/Summer 2005 collection. this wardrobe thing is driving me nuts!
listening to: "Raven" by Do As Infinity
first full day
today marked the first day at my new department. was nervous when i entered the office today.perhaps it's because i felt displaced? even though i know majority of the people at the new dept, somehow or rather, i felt out of place. started to miss my former dept.my 'new job' had more responsibilities, some people say 'more power'..to it, bottom line is = more challenges. the good thing is that i do not have to stand whole day, most of my time will be spent sitting down and launching calls to parents. but this also meant that my tummy will be bigger! (as if it is not big enough loh....) damn! now every meal, i must pray that the extra calories and fats will be eliminated before they enter my body,haha.
currently, i do not have a place to call 'home' yet aka no seat. should be like a wandering soul these few days before they allocate a place for me. but well, at my current company, we use anyone's workstation (provided it is available lah). I still have many things to learn though. it's a new playground now,that means a whole new environment. looking forward to learn from mistakes (hey! there's no perfection yah). hopefully I will be able to stay in this job for some time..hehe.
oooo! the 5 day work week will commence next week!! yuppie! even though i will work longer hours on weekdays, it's worth it! i have a full off day on wednesday!makes more sense lah..dun have to wear office wear for a few hrs (like what i am doing now when my half day is on a weekday) it's a good time to swim and take exercise classes! our pantry is so good that i put on weight.damn it!
one of my goals this year is to lose weight before phoebe's wedding coz i am one of her jie meis!! hehe..must wear nice nice yah. hopefully can lose weight in 2 mths time...10 kgs leh..no joke..need alot of self-discipline and prayers..
*listening to: "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera
2004-a year in review
it's the beginning of 2005. A new year with blessings. time really flies. 2004 had been an eventful year for me. i started blogging in July 2004 and i have to say that it's wonderful to have a blog. though there have been misinterpretations arising out of my blog entries, i will not stop blogging..
as i reflected the year of 2004, i realised that i have changed a little (to some might be alot!) perhaps moulded by the 'events' that have happened last year. i am starting to appreciate solitude more, but sometimes i wish i am not alone and lonely. going down memory lane, this was my 2004:
January
The beginning of my last semester in NUS. 3rd year as a geography major student. Sometimes I still wonder why I chose Geog as my major.Syl,hl and I had our 'firsts' in setting up a stall selling 2nd-hand clothes at Clarke Quay. Was a really interesting experience even though we made a loss of $12,haha. For me, it's the process of 'setting up the business' that I enjoyed the most. I did not really care abt the end result.
February
Busy preparing GeoTrail for the SPH GC 2004. Juggling the responsibilites of being involved in the event,at the same time doing my readings, constantly hoping that my CAP will not fall. Got news that I am moving house in June! New home just across a few streets..hehe.
March
mine and hl's 22nd birthday at Nooch. Celebrated really late due to GC and clash of schedules among the gals. GT this year was well received by the sponsors, really take my hat of SG,who's the head of the GC com. March is also the traditional 'projects and term papers' mth in NUS,before exams in April. Did a massive 10000 word grp project on China's Red Army. Nearly went bonkers due to the nature of the module! I would say that that's one of the most challenging term papers i ever did in NUS
April
Exams time. But sth else affected me more than ever. One of my girlfriend's dad passed away due to cancer. Was really devastated. Happened during my prep for the Chinese History module (have to finish the b***** thick TB and readings!). But i couldn't care abt prep for exam,she was more impt to me. Really thank God that He brought all of us through that difficult period. I was touched by someone's care and concern.
May
We grew much closer,spent more time but only as close friends. Looked for jobs and went to many interviews.Found a temp job.
June
Moved house! it;s the 7th or 8th time i have moved house! *expert look* hahha. got a perm. job at my current company. Near house, reasonable pay, most of all, great colleagues (2 of whom are my closest friends now). Learning to adapt as a working adult.Festival of Praise (Hillsongs as the main performers!) at Indoor Stadium
July
He got to know her. Confided in me. I encouraged him even though I was disintegrating inside. Graduation ceremony! Ricia and xinyi bought me lillies!! syl and hl attended. Got a graduation bear (which i hinted loudly..haha) the final pt that marked the end of life as an undergraduate. Got my first pay! woohoo! but alas! it was spent too fast....started blogging.
August
Yl's aka Oink Oink's 22nd birthday. Got her a pink (really shocking pink) hp case from Mango and sth else (which i really cannot remember).Hl and I walked to every Mango store in Orchard to search for it! Started clubbing with colleagues. Became a frequent affair with friends. Some told me I have changed and got concerned. It's time for a change i guess. 'Deprived' of it while I was in NUS? haha. Took swimming classes.
September
3rd year anniversary of September 11th. US occupation in Iraq grew to a worse stage. End of probation at my company. Got into the height of my depression. Nights spent crying alone in my room.
October
Booked tickets to Seoul for my first holiday (without parents!). Syl's 22nd birthday at East Coast Park. As usual, a dinner. Work became more and busier.They got together. I slipped into depression again. Drinks and late nights.a colleague left.
November
So busy at work, doing OT almost daily. Preparing for the trip, bought this and that and burnt a big hole in my pocket! Swimming lessons ended and I can swim! haha. 1st anniversary serving in church. learnt alot out of serving. thanks to friends and Him, got out of depression. Prayer works! Went to Seoul with an usher-mate in end of Nov!
December
Came back from Seoul.Had a wisdom tooth operation! they broke up,i felt nothing. A good sign that I am over about him!I have moved on by the grace of God. Work was ok. my closest colleague cum sis-in-Christ left.She's getting married in March 2005!!*beams* hugged and cried on her last day. had the annual Christmas dinner at Suntec. First ever 'after Christmas' gathering. Church brought Christmas into Orchard! The concert was fabulous! Good news regarding my transfer to another department!
Looking forward to 2005!!
*listening to: 'True To yourself' by Vanessa Amorosi
