Sequel to the previous blog entry
As promised, this is the sequel to the previous blog entry. In less than 4 hours, it will be the year of 2006. How time really flies!According to the Chinese zodiac, 2006 is the year of the dog *owwwww*. It's 'my year', meaning that I am born in the year of the dog. This also means that I will be 24 years old! Woohoo! Me ain't shy about revealing my age though I know alot of people esp females are sensitive to the 'age' topic. As for me, I treat it as a natural process. It's like a chapter in the book and my life is my story. Now, I am reaching the end of chapter 23, embarking on chapter 24. Wonder what lies ahead of me. Am now at home.Simply refuse to get out of the house and into the streets. Too many people, too crowded. Maybe it's the 'age thing'. As I grow older, I tend to appreciate the tranquility of an empty house. Sad as it may seems, I actually prefer to be alone most of the time. This is so ironic of my people-oriented personality! Friends know me as 'loud', 'party girl', 'social butterfly'. Well, if I have to, I will. There are times when this social butterfly will like to take a break.I wonder why am I writing all these. Hmm...thoughts just simply flow on and on. I read her blog just now. Had alot of emotions, all jumbled up together. I did not know that I had sent her so many 'cute cards' in the previous years. Perhaps this is the only way to retain the many moments that we shared. I have a knack for choosing the 'weird' cards! Simply still miss her, the little chats and sharings. The shopping trips and coffee breaks. The little arguments and some of our little secrets. I have to admit that she's the 'bestest' pal one could ever have. A high level of tolerance, initiative, strong-willed, happy,good listener etc. Perhaps perhaps, I did not appreciate her as much as her other close pals could. Looking back......perhaps one fine day...perhaps...listening to: "Friends" by Michael W Smith
2005- a year of (big and small) changes
A while ago, my friend (whom I almost started a relationship with) asked me over MSN messenger, "How was 2005 for you?". There was a brief silence before I replied," A year of changes, big and small.". Compared to the previous years, this year has been more 'interesting' in a way. To start it off, the year began with me being a full-fledged working adult! No longer a student (though I always maintain the view that we are all 'students' throughout our lives, learning and re-learning everyday.) who dreads the first day of school after New Year. To make this blog entry more organised, let me list down the 'changes' in bite-size manner:WORKMade a decision to change jobs this year even though I did not have a 'backup job' when I handed in the letter. My decision to resign met with differing reactions from 'surprises' to 'young people like you do not know what they are doing'. I'm blessed to have my mum's support, she seldom interferes in my career choices. Took on an entire new job (though a drastic paycut) as a conference coordinator. I LOVED it absolutely. Everyday was a learning experience. I enjoyed myself very much, so much so that my friends could tell! Right now, I am waiting for another contract with the same company! Really hope that this contract will be given green light by the project manager!SPIRITUALITYNot that positive. I still attend weekly services, however this year it's a 'spiritual drought' for me. My faith in Him got shaken many times, usually by the things I see and hear. I have been serving in church for 2 years and had made a decision to leave the ministry so as to concentrate on feeding the Word. A major change for me as I have made close friends with some members of the team, now I will be seeing so much lesser of them.FRIENDSHIPSWell, we have not talked to each other since Jan 14 2005. To almost every mutual friend I meet, I have to say 'we fell out after 10 years of friendship.'Not surprisingly, they will be like 'WHY?! What happened? Both of you were so close? Come on, dun be stubborn children.' We text each other sometimes and still give presents during our birthdays. However, the 'spill-over effects' from this soured friendship are that our other close friends were affected as well. Group gatherings had to held separately. Somehow, I have less confidence in other friendships as well. Not that I do not trust people, I just do not believe in 'friends forever'. Friendships can be so strong yet so fragile. Tried and tested.RELATIONSHIPS (aka BGR)Oh yeah, this one. Should I term it as a 'regret' or 'blessing in disguise'? Well, it's both. I almost got attached to someone in church. It's a long story which I will leave it as it is. Thank God, it did not work out. It's a blessing in disguise in the sense that it will turn out to be a relationship filled with tears,anger,clash of personalities etc. In one word-'rocky. It's a regret because I shed many tears. If we had not known each other, there will be no tears and no waste of precious time. I got to know myself better from this 'lesson'. I am definitely not suited for relationships now. Career and money takes precedence over romance. Of course, GOD is number 1 !LIFESTYLEI signed on to a gym membership in November! Taking classes at a place called 'Go! Fitness' in Wheelock Place. It's an all-ladies gym (of course with the exception of male instructors) minus the presence of 'cold,hard,masculine equipments'. I absolutely love it! The staff are friendly and the members are lovely people. Though the membership is slightly pricey (most of my gal pals winced when I told them that I joined this fitness club), the $$ is worth it and well spent. Ooo..I lost 1.5 kgs since taking the classes! =)Alright...have to go..will continue blogging the 'sequel' tomorrow...
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What the...I wrote a super-long entry just now and I accidentally closed the window! ARGH!!! *slams the mouse*
On being called 'fat' by a stranger
I decided to blog this down after I calmed down, otherwise I can assure you that this blog will be full of curses and swearing.Three days ago, I was walking through the underpass that links Orchard MRT station to Tangs Department Store. It was really crowded as many people were as usual, doing their last-minute shopping after their work. Unfortunately, I accidentally bumped into this well-dressed guy. I apologised,even though it is not entirely my fault. He retorted, 'FAT!' into my face and walked off with a pissed-off expression! I was so shocked that I was dumbfounded. Honestly, I wanted to demand an apology from him. But the underpass was so crowded and stuffy that I just walked on. I felt humiliated, disgraced and damn furious! I swear that if there weren't many people aroound, I will DEFINITELY demand an explanation from him even if I have to endure the stares from kaypoh shoppers. I wonder what kind of upbringing he has! I mean he can say whatever things behind my back etc, but I can't tolerate that response from him right into my face!I know I do not belong to the 'under 50kgs league' and admit that I am a size 12, but that does not warrant such a disgusting behaviour from that stranger. This is the 2nd time I am called 'fat' by a stranger. The first time happened in Zara when this American or Australian International School female student called me 'fat'. I shall not recount that incident. That incident was a major turning point as I turned to weight loss pills again.Now, I feel much calmer. But still angered and disgusted. Alright, am on my way to the doctor's to get my weight loss pills...*listening to: 'Numb/Encore' by Linkin Park feat Jay Z
Singapore's men
When my friend told me about the incident she encountered in her university, my response was, "Sigh! Singaporean guys.....". This was what happened a few days ago:My friend, who's a 4th year engineering student at a local university, was doing her experiments for her project. A few days ago, she was in one of the school's labs figuring out on perfecting her experiments. As she is a mechanical engineer, obviously she handles all kinds of equipment and machinery.In one instance, she was using a piece of equipment to screw something. And mind you, it's not those 'normal household screws' that we use. Obviously it was really tough as she was using alot of strength. She was not the only person in the lab (though she's one of the few ladies around), there were many other students as well including many local male students. Later on, she noticed two foreign Caucasian students staring at her, both must be wondering what she was doing! My friend told me that it's very obvious she was using all her might and strength in dealing with the equipment. One of the Caucasian guys came over and offered his help. She declined politely as she's almost done with her experiment. And all these while, the local male students DID NOT even offer to help!! *rolls eyes* Both of us laughed when she recounted the incident to me. Our response were, "See..Singaporean guys, not 'gentlemen-ness'. Only know how to see but not offer to help!" It's not that we girls are weak at dealing with equipments, just that there's not enought local men who are initiative to offer their assistance. I see this so many times in MRTs and buses. Strong, able-bodied men who just simply sit in their seats (as if their butts are glued to the seats!) either 1) pretend to be sleeping though some are genuine cases, 2) reading their TODAY newspapers, 3) listening to their iPODs or whatever devices, 4) talking or texting their cellulars. I am honestly disappointed. Ok, before I get battered by any comments, not all Singaporean men are like that ok....A few black sheep taint the entire lot.*listening to: 'I Try' by Macy Gray
