still missing
I still miss him. I know,I know..I should not miss him,but it's tough. He is the first guy whom I had feelings for and we were quite close. Daily calls had ceased totally and I reckon he avoids me on MSN too. When I am online, he goes offline or 'busy'.Tried and tested. Too much of a coincidence. Can't believe things have changed so drastically in a span of 3 mths. Damn.Intended to go for 2nd service today, but had to go for the 3rd one because:
1) I woke up late (as usual,=P)
2) Had to spend some time to study for my theory test
3) Erm, was watching a made-for-tv movie entitled 'While I Was Gone' on Hallmark channel (thumbs up for Hallmark!Wonderful shows!)
Had planned to avoid going for 3rd service coz I thought I would bump into him and his friends. In the past (before we starting to know each other more),we would bump into each other in the queue. I was hoping that I would not meet him in the queue today.The situation would be really awkward.I would still be my chirpy self and say,'Hi!' but I guess his reaction would be different.
Amazingly, or should I say divinely-planned, I arrived really late today but wasn't late for service. PP wasn't preaching,it was PJ.I found out when my friend smsed me and told me that the 2nd service had ended at 1.20pm! I was still at home,frantically changing my clothes.If it was PP, it would not end so early. This meant that there would be no queue for the 3rd service as everyone would be in the auditorium. I was relieved.
However, a part of me really wants to see him, at least catch a glimpse and make sure that he is ok. I glanced ard a few times and scanned at the usual areas he would be seated. No sight of him and his friends. Maybe I missed it.Disappointment.Moments later, memories came back and I felt slightly sad. Was perked up later by the P&W and the sermon.
Today's sermon by PJ was AWESOME! Alot of new things to learn even though the same passage had been preached numerous times. See, the Bible has many secrets to be revealed. His preaching is getting more and more powerful each time. Though he has his own style, I do see a part of PP in him,esp the corny jokes..haha.
Know what, I am so glad that even if no one loves me, Jesus still loves me;yesterday,today and forever.That is one thing I know for sure,=)
*listening to: Silence of the night.....
posted by Jiatine @ 12:57 AM
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